So sorry for the lack of post yesterday. I had time but not the inclination. My boyfriend decided to leave me yesterday and did so by packing his bags and moving out while I was at work without so much as a note or goodbye or even an explanation.
When I came home to find all of his things gone, I started hyperventilating. I don't think I've ever felt a more sharp or real pain than that. And the ridiculous thing is that I just want to know if he's ok and why he felt the need to do this.
Look, I'm not as stupid as I sound. I know he's just fine and he did it without a second thought in my direction. I know it was a hurtful, immature, spiteful thing to do and that he lied to me for weeks while planning this. I know he doesn't give a care about me and how I feel. I know these things in my head. My heart doesn't seem to understand.
It's just so hard! Everytime I want to cry I just take a deep breath and remind myself that he's not worth my tears. He's not even a man. Men could not do these things to anyone, least of all people they love.
Day 21 - 344 Days to Go
No comments:
Post a Comment