So tonight Shawn and David came over with Anika. Their former roommate, Trey, came with them. It was a fun night trying to get into the game at hand and making characters. Shawn’s wolf was pretty easy to make. Trey may take some time with his Ratkin and David and his mageling will take the most amount of time. So far as I can tell, it hasn’t ever been done.
So my main problem as it has been for a little while is that I find myself attracted to a friend’s husband. This isn’t much like me. The last time I found myself in this predicament I did nothing about it for four years until it went away. And these friends, in particular, I’d never do anything to mess with. They have a good family going and don’t need anything getting in the way of that. I can acknowledge these feelings but I refuse to be *that* chick.
The thing is and I don’t know if I’m mis-reading the signs but I feel like he may be interested as well. Now, I know they’re notorious flirts and maybe that’s all this is. I like to flirt, too. But generally know the difference between the feelings. Of course, I’ve been wrong before and won’t ever allow myself to find out even if it comes up. Like I said, I don’t want to be that chick.
Their kids call me auntie. And I love them as a couple. I also know I’m a bit lonely just coming out of my relationship with Patrick. I guess the main thing is the guilt for even thinking this way. *head desk* I swear, I don’t know why my head thinks this way sometimes. I really don’t. I even met a really nice guy that I’m getting together with tomorrow for a lunch date thing.
C’mon, Lauren. You’re getting your life on track. Don’t fuck it up now.
Day 53 - 312 Days to go
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